Active Columns:

Mar 21, 2010 - Deja Vu
Mar 28, 2010 - SeizurePalooza
Oct 18, 2009 - Born to Run
Oct 12, 2009 - Give it a Rest
Oct 2, 2009 - ...Bitch on a Budget
May 12, 2009 - The Brazilian
Feb 14, 2009 - My date with "Adam"
Feb 6, 2009 - Valentine's Day? BAH!
Feb 2, 2009 - Won't get Fooled...
Jan 14, 2009 - Here Kitty Kitty...
Jan 12, 2009 - On The Mend
Dec 12, 2008 - A Not-So-Merry Christmas
Dec 8, 2008 - Ivan's Move
Nov 30, 2008 - Quick Update
Nov 7, 2008 - And God Says...
Nov 6, 2008 - It's Not Looking Good...
Sep 24, 2008 - Shake Hands With The Devil
Sep 23, 2008 - It's Just Like Paris
Sep 17, 2008 - Memoirs of a Catholic...
Sep 16, 2008 - Suicidal Tendencies
Sep 15, 2008 - Fat is a Feminist Issue
Sep 14, 2008 - Get Me Out of Here
Sep 13, 2008 - Living with the 'rents
May 20, 2008 - I'm Not Dead Yet
May 19, 2008 - PSA
Apr 29, 2008 - Are You There God?
Apr 14, 2008 - Frightening the Neighbors
Mar 17, 2008 - The Border
Mar 10, 2008 - The Vibrator
Oct 8, 2007 - Ivan the Terrible
Sept 20, 2007 - Depression?
July 19, 2007 - An Update
July 3, 2007 - A Good Catch
March 26, 2007 - Crushed
March 19, 2007 - Adieu le feu
March 12, 2007 - Taking a Chance
Feb 26, 2007 - Biological Clock
Oct 16, 2006 - Determination...
July 15, 2006 - The Puppy
July 10, 2006 - The Gastroenterologist
July 8, 2006 - The Neurology Ward
Nov 21, 2005 - Who Would You Do?
Nov 14, 2005 - Shaved Pussies
Nov 7, 2005 - Avoidance
Sep 26, 2005 - love, kindness, missed chances
Aug 2, 2005 - Geoff the Entomologist
Aug 1, 2005 - Revenge
May 11, 2005 - Going for it
May 21, 2005 - The Green Thumb
Apr 22, 2005- Barry Again
Apr 21, 2005 - The Rectal Syringe
Apr 18, 2005 - Butterflies of Love
Apr 17, 2005 - No escape
Apr 10, 2005 - Meeting Colin Farrell
Oct 17, 2004 - Oops, I've done it again
Oct 21, 2004 - Lust
Oct 30, 2004 - Of Mice and Men
Nov 5, 2004 - What the FUCK...?
Oct 12, 2004 - The US Election
Oct 11, 2004 - MegaCleanse
Oct 5, 2004 - Life Sucks
Jul 8, 2004 - The Horoscope
Jun 15, 2004 - Seven Deadly Sins
Apr 24, 2004 - Going Out
Feb 24, 2004 - Tails
Jan 24, 2004 - The Decorator
Aug 25, 2003
July 18, 2003
July 17, 2003
July 16, 2003
May 19, 2003
May 18, 2003
May 17, 2003
May 16, 2003
May 1, 2003
Mar 10, 2003
Jan 25, 2003
Jan 24, 2003
Jan 23, 2003
Apr 30, 2002
Apr 30, 2003
May 29, 2002
May 12, 2002
May 18, 2001
January 10, 2001
December 11, '00
April 17, '00
But I'M NOT BITTER...
The Goddess of battle, strife, and destruction explains it all for you

Crushed

by

 

Mar 26, 2007

 

The agonizing crush that had me in its cruel grip has been resolved Ė not quite the way Iíd hoped, but itís resolved all the same.

 

I was hanging out with the Hotness two days ago, just talking (or so Iíd like to think: I was probably being transparent and embarrassing).OK, I admit to some serious ogling and perhaps a few impure thoughts.

 

But we do talk and have done for ages. Heís my friend. (I now know why guys dread the Friend Zone.Thereís no escape.)

 

He had been telling me that his buddies had been urging him to get a life (heís kind of a male version of me in that sense), we talked about what movies we were interested in seeing, how neither of us did much but work and sleep, blah, blah, blah.

 

I was trying to work up the courage to ask him out when his phone rang.

 

It was another woman texting him to ask him out on a first date.

 

Right out of the blue.

 

He accepted the invitation.With a smile.And then promised to give me the details, because weíre friends: weíve talked.

 

Holy fuck!Did I ever read that one wrong!

 

At first blush, this doesnít look like a particularly fortuitous development Ė but I see it as a sharp nudge from the gods to get a clue and back the fuck off.Since they normally use mallets to make their point, this is a nice change.†††

 

But it was bloody surreal, Iíll tell you.Does this shit happen to anyone else or am I right in believing itís just me?Anyone?

 

Hmm.Girls, I canít say I care much for this ďloose puckĒ status (what my crush said the other guys thought I was) I have.Everythingís so uncertain.This is not a natural habitat for a control freak.It makes me anxious.I suspect that I suck at this.

 

But letís look at the evidence, shall we?

 

I realized a fantasy and dated a fireman -- and had an entirely dreary time of it.It was not hot Ė Iíve had that fantasy since puberty and I feel cheated.I always imagined it would be crazy hot.See?Be careful what you wish for (though the fireman thing seems gratuitously cruel, even for the gods).

 

On the yawning heels of that debacle, I manufactured an attraction to someone who is completely indifferent to me.I was only just prevented from making a total idiot of myself by an act of divine intervention and even so, I still managed to garner more than a fair share of humiliation along the way.And I will run into this man on a regular basis.

 

Fuck.I hate moving.

 

Clearly, some counsel is called for.I emailed my mole and laid it all out for him.Why was this happening to me?Would he be honest and tell me if I had no game?Does he think Iím too aggressive?

 

His response:

 

You do know that you can be alpha, without ACTING like an alpha?  True power isn't demonstrated.  It just IS. Just sitting there people know that you are not to be fucked with.  Think more Japanese samurai than berserker warrior. 

 

You don't need "game".  There is no game.  Just show up.  That's it.  You don't have to prove to everyone how huge your dick is, unless you are still trying to convince yourself.  Just R E L A X !!!  Ye gads, how many times have you read that from me? 

 

Astounding! This man will just not sugar coat it Ė whatever I ask him, heíll answer me honestly.Even when I donít ask him, heíll volunteer it and so far itís always been the truth.

 

Getting total honesty from a man is a disorienting, out of bodyish experience but I may as well make hay while the sun shines, ladies.Iím going to pump him for information before he clams up or is unmasked as a spy and killed.

This could get interesting.

 

Till next time,

 

Morrigan



Copyright© the Morrigan & Heartless Bitches International (heartless-bitches.com) 2007
go to top

Pause your cursor over each link below for a more detailed description

Home
Search HBI
HBI FAQ
   Rants
   Collected Quotes
   The Manipulator Files
   Nice Guys? BLEAH
   Links
    I'M NOT BITTER...
   Auntie Dote
   Honorary HBs
   Adult Books
   Kids Books
   Privacy Policy
   Awards
   HBI Sitings

---

Want to link to HBI?



  Want to know when we update? Subscribe to our "What's New" RSS Feed

(What is an RSS Feed?)


Get SharpReader - our favorite RSS aggregator - it's free!

If you don't have a Newsreader, you can subscribe to updates via email:

Enter your Email


Powered by FeedBlitz

Add this Content to Your Site